I’ve been on an Alan Watts kick lately. There are endless YouTube videos of his lectures in which he imparts his wisdom and gift of words upon us. Here is a short (3 minutes) clip of one of his talks where he discusses the importance of living fully now, in this moment.
As heart surgery patients, the reality of our own mortality is thrust upon us. This becomes clear in the days leading up to the surgery. The fear can be crippling. After a successful surgery & recovery, that fear lingers. We are afraid so we worry about potentially dying one day. No amount of worry will prolong the arrival of death! In fact, the stress could possibly make it happen sooner.
I’ve made one mistake over and over, especially after my heart surgeries. Because of this near death experience, I have it in my mind that I need to do something greater with my life. There really isn’t anything wrong with that, except that it has become a desperate and flailing search. By constantly planning or deciding things that I should do to improve my life, I am forgetting to enjoy my life, now. There is no future, only now.
Watch The video below.
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